candle in the water
drifting
melting into the endless sea
a shining light that nobody sees
nobody
not even me
one small hope
that's quickly burning out
and drifting
drifting helplessly
drounded
by the jealous sun
even less welcoming
than all the locals
not happy to see another soul
another soul that needed saving
they're all too busy to care
at least they could've hated you
so then you'd feel like
you were noticed somehow
but no
everything you need in life
is never there
and no
life's never fair
but at least it's somewhat better
than not living at all
but yeah
well I guess when you stop to think
none of us ever made you feel worthy
because we were all way too busy
hearing that same dull song pound
through our heads
saying our lives were unfair
when we weren't even fair to you
our own jack assed insensitivity
made you another casualty
another candle in the water
drifting
melting into the endless sea
that's quickly burning out
and drifting helplessly
Stare
staring into the mirror
watching her fade
they stare at her
Baby's fading away
buried in her own facade
six feet of lies and mistakes
she's fading away
they glare at her
nails screeching on cold glass
Facade smiles
she waves
Baby's breath slipping away
as they stare
they stare with a glare
so young, so cool,
so trapped in this glass box
filling, spilling
dripping,
dripping...
red runs down their feet
but still they stare
Baby's faded away
but still
they glare
The Raven
a raven flies out from us
flies unheard
undisturbed
a silent flash of darkness
against a fake, cheerful sky
that instantly turns on you when angry
this raven has slipped through our fingers
and we didn't see her leave
because we still felt her heart beating
long after it had died
and now our hands are empty
not a feather left behind
we raise them to our faces to wonder why
why
why this beautiful bird left us
we know the answer
we know why
but we don't listen
we won't listen
I scream
my voice not mine but hers
they don't listen
won't listen
because it's the truth
and we never listen to the truth
never
The Soul Reaper
tiptoe through the roses
the darkness draws near
breath, ice
eyes, cold
black, dry without a tear
babies cry
they whimper in the night
starving, freezing
hopeless
soft flutter of wings blue
approaches, a dark soul
in one claw the raven
in the other
a beauty unfurled
of truth and lies
love and hate
oh, silent hunter
beautiful killer
mystery of the night
oh, most lethal and fatal mate
that I might join in your final rendue
and now captured
the prey
screams silent, worthless
worthless against such fate
world drifting,
fading,
to an endless world of black
how I envy you
Bloom
walk through the mirror
into you
I'm the princess now
look who's the princess now
oh look at me
I'm a star
better watch out
this star can burn out any time now
and all I am
will sink into you
it'll rip right into you
and all I want
I'll sink into you
I'll rip right into you
look now I'm the rose
every petal you've ever kissed
ever blessed
every rose you've ever faked
and I will rise
I'll burn out your eyes
and you will be mine
oh happy valentine
your petals will fade
they crumble now cupped in my hands
and I will kiss your fading bloom
I'll sink right into you
feel as I burn through
scream as the sadness burns right through
I'll be as beautiful as you
and you won't resist me
you'll bless and kiss me
while we shine and bloom
and fade away
Winter's Disappearance Into Night
She sat on the bench.
Waiting.
Black boots digging into cold white sand.
The chilling wind biting her face.
Stinging her tears.
She waited.
Maybe she was dead.
Maybe she was hurt.
But she'd never just leave.
She believed this.
Her heart was tangled in the trees.
Black lace that grips the weak.
The dark hands passed.
Slapping her as they left.
And still she waits.
Waits for someone who'll never come.
Winter fades.
The candle becomes dark.
And the black lace is now dripping with red.
Night has won.
Another child lies dead.
No one cries for the lost.
The souls unremembered.
Never laid to rest.
Unavenged.
And still she waits.
And still I wait.
Orb
Dogs howl at the moon
Howl, dogs
Howl
The madness
That is no more
Is inside the orb
Open
Won't you come inside
Fall into the nothingness
Of space
Of time
Of insanity
Howl, dogs
Howl
The Ceiling
staring at the ceiling
with nothing to do
nowhere to go
for I'm going to die soon
and nothing I do
no where I go
will matter any more
staring at the ceiling
not really thinking
not really breathing
not really living
just waiting and watching
the seconds go by
feeling myself die
staring at the ceiling
knowing that when tommorrow comes
whenever it may
I'll just be another boring obituary
another statistic
eagere for my share of no recognition
knowing that tommorrow I'll be forgotten
staring at the ceiling
feeling sorry for myself
not knowing exactly why
except that it's another nothing
that's something to do
staring at the ceiling
no apples falling on my head
just practicing being dead
so I'll be a pro at it tommorrow
staring at the ceiling
what boring lives we lead
and our reward being...
what the hell is our reward?
to die a slow death
to be quickly forgotten
never remembered at all
by those who promised
"I'll never forget"
Cannibal
I smell the blood
it hungers me
I find in your twisted mind
the perversion I so need
the rotting sallow flesh
exposing yellow bone underneath
it calls to me
your dismembered beauty
so maddens me
maddens me
oh god how it maddens me
I want to eat your flesh
taste that potent wine that pulses through your veins
devour you
hate you
hurt you
find the essence of your pain
I want to know
know your unbearable agony
I want to feel
feel it as I torture you
I want to smell
smell the fear clenching so tightly to your skin
I want to swim
swim in your blood
my sin
for my obsession is addicted
fed by my pure hate
and this drug tastes no sweeter
than when fed with your terror
incarnate
Oceans of Night
black mirrors
surrounding
drowning
drowning in this taunting oblivion
there they lie
waiting
silently praying
waiting
ensnaring those angels
angels hapless
angels helpless
dying in the black night
devoured
these pure souls
satiating
an ever growing starvation
for the purity of passion
they burst
craving of the darkness
they now become
and left to die
among their graveyard
of now abandoned dreams
left pondering
if such pleasure
is worth such pain
and such a world
of the melancholy
Sacrifice
I bleed for you
1, 2, 3
The beads of red fall
Sinking into the sheets
Like your eyes into me
Slice the blade goes
Slices my heart in two
As I close my eyes
And die for you
